ok, i need to start out this entry with a warning:

ALL (well, probably all)FURTHER WRITINGS WILL PROBABLY BE STUPIDLY SHALLOW AND PATHETIC!!!!!

just thought i should let you know.

anyway, yesterday (it will seem like i'm picking on steph, i'm really not tyring to) steph, well, i should probably tell you what she looks like first. steph is about 5'3", kinda heavy, with LOOOONG blonde hair. her face is kinda child-like and she has bangs. well, on monday, she wore her hair in two braided pig-tails on the top of her head. it looked REALLY bad. and then today, she wore make-up. now, you may wonder, what is so wrong with make-up? i wear it and it looks good? well, she has never worn make-up before (you can tell) and this is how she put it on. she wore BLACK mascara, and lipstick, and lip liner. like, a pinkish color. anyway, at the begining of school, it was like, "WHOA!!! too much make-up alert!!!!!" and then, as the school day wore on, the lipstick came off, but there was a line of lip liner around her lips. it looked really really bad. oh dear God, what if she wears it tomorrow? please, please, PLEASE don't wear it steph!!!! anyway, the second shallow thought. it feels like paige is stealing ashley from me. HOLD BACK YOU LAUGHTER!!!!! i know this is shallow and petty, but that's exactly how i feel. like, i know she comes to me for the important stuff (like all this bull with her mom and justin calling her names) but i don't want to just be her therepist!!!! i want to be with her when nothing deep is going on. like, today it was better, cuz she didn't sit with paige, but, ya. oh, and i'm also mad at steph (not just cuz she doesn't know how to wear make-up) but because she took paiges spot for history. ok, now i'm sure y'all are confuzzled, so i shall explain. paige IS my friend, but i was just a little pissed at her for awhile, but i'm not anymore, and then, well, to be gut-level honest, i don't really like steph that much. i mean, sure she's pretty fun, but she is so (beaver) dam (from now on i'm just going to write dam instead of beaver dam) serious sometimes! i mean good Lord, if i TOUCH her hair (oh heaven forbid) she goes (totally seriously) "gretchen, DON'T touch my hair ever!!!" i mean my word, it's just HAIR!!!! and then she always talks to me during class, and i really don't give a ship what she has to say sometimes. like during Bible, she will tell me all these stories and ask stupid questions that i'm sure she could figure out all on her own. and when she learns something that's "exiting" or different (like how on halloween, satanist tie little kids to alters, cut slits on the bottom of their feet and in their writst, put the blood in cups, and drink their blood) she will gasp SOOO DAM LOUD!!!! it bugs the crud out of me!!! anyway, i don't know what it is (maybe she looks up to me, but that i HIGHLY doubt that) but she's always just GUSHING over me. i mean, she's fine, but if she would just be quiet just for one class period (Bible perhaps......) i would be exteremly happy. but i'm sure that's how natalie and jen feel about me sometimes........o well, they are some of my bestest friends, i know they will put up with me (right natalie ;) anyway, i just really needed to get these petty feelings out in the open, and now that i'm reading over this, i sound like some weird freak with not enough tolerance. tomorrow's a b-day and i have choir. i like choir, i site by laura, paige,

and steph

oh boy, am i going to have fun........

gretti

miss any?
50 things about me - Sunday, Jul. 24, 2005
my ex-friend - Friday, Jun. 17, 2005
usher, sex, and head - Monday, May. 02, 2005
teehee, i'm on mrs. campbell's compy - Tuesday, Apr. 19, 2005
rachel and the sci fair - Tuesday, Apr. 05, 2005

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